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Hello public-diary. It's been forever. So yeah. Life has changed completely. Goodbye carefree gap-year with my friends and the boyman I love, hello big city, no friends and a fuck load of free time going to waste. Luckily I'm doing the coolest course. It's pretty much exactly what I want to study at this point in my life. I'm doing a Bachelor of Design (Interior Design) at QUT, where the girls are trendy and cute and the boys... well, there's not many boys doing Interior Design. It's cool. All I have to do is sketch, think about the purpose of design and read architecture books =). Thank God I like my course, or else I'd probably have already dropped out. It's definitely been hard leaving Cairns, but hey, paths need to carved, pages need turning... It's a bend in the road as Anne Shirley might say.

Time for lameness: I just miss him.

OKAY, goodbye public-diary!

done

finished qcs. applied to universities. done the 'hardest term', and now all the assessment is being sent away. donedonedonedonedone
and its feels so fucking good
ive been on holidays for like a week and ive already had so many amazing times.
thanks to new friends and my boyfriend i realised cairns is fucking beautiful, so ive been out in nature enjoying the weather and getting ma tan on weoooo
i feel so secure right now, but now im becoming reliant on going out and avoiding anything else
sigh
but whatever. im enjoying these holidays, cos its the last one before we graduate (i dont count term 4 holidays, cos like claire said 'we have nothing to go back to').
tomorrow i plan to spend the day by a river in the sun, preferably getting cuddles from vanilla man
so thats its for now

wine and cheese/goon and coon

in the morning
i love these pics =)

D=

i'm listening to 'my love is stronger than your love' by red riders. that song makes me contemplative like a crazy fox, cos foxes are contemplative.
it makes me feel sad and heartbroken, even though im pretty much the polar opposite
im actually really happy and deeply smitten =) (seeing as this is my public diary, i feel i should just say things that are corny)
its been almost 2 months, but it feels like it just happened last weekend.
argh its so weird how quickly time is flying. theres like 1.5 weeks til my music exams are over, 2 weeks til QCS, 3 weeks til block, and then 2 weeks after that, its holidays again
then its my last term of school ever
AHHhhhh
then im out in the real world
fuckpoo

the holidays

these have probably been the first holidays which i've really taken advantage of (yep, i took advantage of holidays when it was sleeping)
it's been delightful of strengthening some friendships, or getting to know these amazing people who have been right under my nose
i have a lovely new manfriend in my life and i think he is 'proper multijet printer' (he speaks his own language and i like it ;D)
i'm at ease
and
now its over!
things are gonna change at school, i suspect. ahh change. inevitable and necessary.
sigh. everything comes to an end, but these past two weeks have been a steady stream of pure bliss (yay i achieved the plateau of happiness i mentioned in a previous blog... i think).
hope you enjoyed these holidays too =D

pleased is an understatement

we sat under the stars,
we talked, we laughed, we cuddled, we kissed
and life was good for five hours

now angry/sad blog

i fucking hate the bullshit that some people have to go through. its completely fucked up. i hate people who have to deal with abuse of any kind. i hate seeing them cry. i hate wondering if the smile is real. i hate being happy when theyre not. i hate the fact i cant do anything. i hate feeling like i can never make a difference. i hate the fact its still happening. i hate knowing that women, men, children, innocent people around the world are being tortured, raped, oppressed, teased, kicked out, lonely. i hate that there is no simple solution. i hate the fact there is no possible way to make anyone forget, to heal their wounds. i hate that its fellow humans doing it. i hate that people can even think of commiting all these fucked up acts. and i really hate that i know amazing people who deal with it everyday, just because there's nothing anyone else can do
this goes out to everyone suffering