swoony shorts

okay. i did an angry blog, now i'll do a love-induced blog
(need to get this months blogs up to scratch. only one blog last month! gosh. must have been a little too carefree, with all my happiness)
anyways, i've told all my friends i'm going cold turkey off the person i thought was so amazing. theyre pretty disappointed heh
his unresponsiveness is brutally erasing all the pretty images in my minds eye
and it's quite sad. i'm giving up on love. well this particular love anyway.
while i feel fine and dandy now (which means i'm just unattached from my passionate little heart), i can tell, eventually, i'll have this weird sense of loss and regret. i mean, cold turkey can only go so far. its pretty much a last resort
there are other steps, but i'm pretty sure theyre not gonna work. and the one that MIGHT work is way too scary to try
1. weening myself off with another, less potent, addiction. eg. a slightly less attractive man
2. moving onto something stronger. eg. a slightly more attractive man
3. hypnosis, mind fuzz, leaving my earthy senses. eg. actual sense-altering substances
4. intervention. eg. convincing my friends i need help
5. confronting it head on. eg. telling him how i feel

so. im keen on the weening off onto other men. but i know that'll turn into another full blown addiction. so thats out of the question... sort of.
the mind fuzz sounds very tempting, but thats not gonna happen either, cos i literally have no means/money/place to try fuzzling up my brain.
i think, eventually, my friends will give up with me if i continue my cold turkey. and that will mean the intervention strategy WILL work. i think one by one theyre giving up. but i have a few stubborn supporters of my addiction
and. of course, the one that could lead either to a happy ending, closure, or deep depression, is the only one that seems most sensible. but obviously, i'm too much of a softcock to try it. funny that. the one with most promise, or at least the one with an actual answer is the only one i'm definately not willing to try.

it's easy to scream COLD TURKEY now, when i dont have his pretty eyes locking onto mine
but. jesus, when they do, i'm a lovehigh fool
and i hate it
he's more potent than meth
the highs are worth the lows
but i cant get enough
its a strong addiction, and i'm just gonna keep on relapsing